Every Fallen Thursday

Damn...i can't get myself to sleep tonight..ish ish...always happened once or twice a month. I had futsal and jamming tonight somemore..damn tired...well, watever...might as well do some writing..

Yeah..im juggling 2 bands now.
I'm doing vocals and a little bit of guitar for this new band..

Every Fallen Thursday

And im beginning to get kinda commited with them. They are nice people, and all of them are friends who love music and got together to form a band..thats the best thing for a band..i wish i was that lucky..but i was never man...ish..but mainly is because there is so much space for me to learn and explore..furthermore..enjoy. We are playing more of mainstream pop rock, punkish alternative genres. 2 materials were done and im happy to fill in the melodic and riffs and vocals. Kinda new to me but fun, and is something i always wanted to try to do. And so glad..they like it ..more than i do..HAHAHAA...ok..i abit SS now ! (Syok Sendiri).. but then..yeah..i agreed with some people who said my vocals will suits more on this kind of songs...hhmm..maybe,

Maybe this could be a better direction for me ? who knows rite..

You know..when everything just got in tune and snap at the same second, I dunno how to describe it..but it was awesome satisfaction feeling..i saw a smile, or rather a hidden grin on the band leader. I know how it feels...to have your very original songs being fully completed after so long. I used to know...yeah...that estacy feeling...yeah...and i still remember how it feels..hahahaa..

What about Drye ?

Yes...Drye has almost recruiting all the new members. Yes...new members...because my bassist suddenly went MIA ( missing in action )...damn..fuck.. im gonna make sure one day he will regret doing this...while the drummer...we still keep in touch. But he is having his SPM this year so alot of restriction from his parents. I told him i gonna find new members, and he is cool with it :)

We will go in studio for first jamming this weekend to see how things goes. I hope this will work out man !

Btw...Drye plays more on progressive rock, heavy stuffs...so its kinda different from Every Fallen Thursday...in terms of acceptance. But whatever..both rocks ! HAHAHAHAHA...ok SS again..hahahahahaha

Well, things just got better...but its still a long way to go man ! i hope it will go far..!

guys...please wait for my next performance ! yeah yeahhh... !

K...my eyes are heavy di...nite nite

Goodbye Prepaid

Finally, i changed to Maxis Postpaid, after few months of procastination..haha

Some drama..
I was at the Maxis branch, asking to change to Postpaid. Check check, then the executive said that my name and profile were blacklisted ! and all is my exact profile details and numbers....and i have an outstanding amount of Rm140+..I was kinda shocked...i asked for the number and it was 017******* (in case Maxis found out this post ..haha..never know mann ) ...year 2003...

Year 2003...that was soooo long ago..but all the while i dun remember registering any numbers..it was prepaid all the while. But then, the number is very familiar, becoz the last four digit, is Wei Loon's car plate number...but i just couldn't remember anything more than that, bcoz i memang never have any registered number before. So anyway, the people there told me they can't do anything about it, i have to refer and talk to the main headquarter. Which luckily, is just in Klang also..hahaha

So on the way there, i called up Wei Loon...talk talk..he dun remember also..but he said sounds familiar...when im almost there, he called back...asking to confirm the number...talk talk...and then...ting* ...found out the time that Timecell was having this promotion, to use the 017 number sim for free ! and i took the number coz it was same with Wei Loon's car plate number..and i did filled up the form with my details...ishh...damn...con man ! ! ishhh...he told me he remembered i used the number to make calls..after that dunno where i throw away the SIM card somemore..hahahahahaha...

So now i got an outstanding amount of Rm140+...ishh...well, was thinking...okla...put up an "innocent" show then at the end pay off only la..in order to register.. *karma..* sigh..haha

So..at the end...to cut long story short...i think i should be award the best actor for the day..HAHAHAHA...innocent + pissed + unbelieveable reactions..hahahaha....and the executive actually believes me...and write off the old blacklisted account..just like that...yea yeahhhh..hahahaha.....and the best thing..i dun have to pay the outstanding amount...hahaha..

Well..in a way i think...Timecell was a so way back then...they dunwanna keep track also i guess...easier for them...good for me too ! hahahaha


I went Redbox from 830 to 3am yday nite..ahhahahaa...Jean's farewell !! take care gal ! work hard and good luck !!!!

me and my determination

when
im different from the world
just so let me be different

holding on
to me
is strong against strong

me
if i feel myself not good enough
if i lie to myself
Even if you don't forgive
i can't forgive too

the most beautiful dream
for sure to be the most crazy
i am my own god
in the place i live

to
my love ones
please be calm
my own stubborness
is my way of kindness
the dirtier my hands
the brighter is my eyes

you don't mind my past
you saw my wings
you said being burned
only then the phoenix appears

anti clockwise direction
is better for flying
im not afraid of millions voices
im just afraid i might give up



me and my last determination
tighten up my fist
never ever to let go
next stop
would it be heaven ?
even if we've dissappointed
never to lose your hope

me and my high pride determination
screaming on top of my lungs
this time
be crazy with yourself
just this one time
me and my determination

Mayday's mode

Why am i having this fishy feeling now ?

Could it be its monday tomolo ? ishh..where's my motivation...i should feel more contented actually..

Borrowed this compilation of Mayday's song from fatty. I just realised i missed out so much of their nice songs..and they are keep improving...damn...and their laid back, simple lyrics will just make senses in somewhere somehow and hits you right there...motivates you, telling you stories..about life..love...i can't help it but learn to sing all the songs..really..almost all the songs...ish..

Saturday :

I didn't managed to sleep till noon. Was dragged up an hour earlier to go for lunch at Pyramid@ KimGary with the Kurakura's. Grumpy mode. But i think must be the newly renovated environment, and atmosphere there...the food is nice..the crowd is nice...or maybe its Saturday..everyone looks happy..so do i..hehehe :)



condensed milk layered ? wooo...!!



Done some window shopping then Keong and YoonSing's birthday treat, seafood dinner at Pulau Carrey..hahahaha..really nice food ! yumm...except maybe the crab is dissappointing..ehhehe..and check out the self made "porno" cake below !!!!! ..hahahaa..Thought the seafood dinner was a nice one...this surprise "birthday cake" was something new !! hahahahahahahahaa..

talk about innovativee..and..kinky..haha



although alot of old classmates and friends came..but somehow, i didn't really get to catch up with most of them..just a word or 2 and thats it..well, i blame it at the table i was sitting, all around are the usual gang i hang out with..hahaha...

Sunday :

was supposed to go for dimsum breakfast...i ffked..
was supposed to go for swimming in the noon...i ffked..
was supposed to go for squash in the evening...i ffked...
was supposed to go for ktv at night...they ffked...

Well, managed to catch up for dinner with the kurakura's. Nice food again..yumm ! got a msg from jamtankers, and managed to join Baltimore and gang for a jamming session after that

By the way..i met up with few new friends last week..but i doubt if i've ever see them anytime soon...hahaha..dun ask me why i think like that...But then, its always nice meeting new friends :)

So who wanna date me ? just call 012 3710652 ... HAHAHAHAA !

9975

She had to come out from the car in order to reach and insert the ticket..hahahahaha

watch your back

2:30am..
im hungry..i decided to go out to get something to eat...
it wasnt the first time i was hungry at odd hours...
my dad doesn't like me eating maggie mee..
he rather i go eat something else outside..

I open and reverse the car out...
while reversing out from the gate...
i thought i saw a little girl figure...
at the right side road...
just a flash..
i think so...
coz when im done reversing facing the road..
i see nothing...
i see branches of leaves of my garden sticking out...

i step on the oil pedal..
suddenly a cold chill ran down my spine...
then it struck me..
it is 60 days this year...
it was 2:30am...
....

The road was quiet..
unusually maybe usually...
suddenly i feel..
dunno...
some sort of presence...
the loud radio is not helping...
i know my mind can be very imaginative...
i twist away the back mirror...
to the side...

I came to a traffic light..
it was red light..
but i ran through it...
then i remembered the sayings...
that you may ran over "them" on red lights at night...
i feel really one kind...
the presence is still there..
and now this guilty feeling...
the loud radio is not helping...

I can't help..
but keep checking out the back seats..
everywhere..
i keep feeling one kind..
like a presence..
or a force..
like as in something will approach me from behind..
crawling from behind..
hiding from behind..
touch me..
...

the loud radio is really not helping...

I decided to cut short and turn back...
the way back really freaks me..
the road were unusually empty and lonely..
where are the cars... ???
the 3 mins drive back seems forever...
the presence can kill me...
behind..
behind..
from behind..
don't touch me..
im sorry...
please...
im on the verge of...
suffocating...

the last left turn to my house...
should i check out the spot of the little girl flash again...
and i did..
there was nothing there..
thanks..
i press on the gate controller...
gates open and i drives in...
another flash..
on the white walls..
what it is..
no..i dun bother think..
the presence is still there...
im breaking down...
i just park the car...
off the engine and went in my house...

Once i was in the house..
i dun feel it anymore...
i dunno what is it...
but i know i want to write this down...
it freaks me out...
why..i dunno why..

laugh at me and call me a fool..
i know my imagination is working overtime

but...
Im just glad im back home..
Im just glad i didnt encounter anything...

I think im gonna leave the lights on tonight...

always remember to watch your back...

Let it be

whatever happens...
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.
let it be. let it be. let it be. let it be.

Beggar Chicken

After a few weeks of failed planning..finally another plan done. We went for the ..i think quite famous "beggar chicken" in banting...where the food are buried and heated underneath the coal and dunno what else, where each dishes takes 4 hours to be heated and cook..so you have to book..one week earlier..ahahhahaha

woooooooooo......

Eventhough how good it taste or how nice it it looks when it is served...when taken in up close..it still look kinda gross..hahahahahaa...the pics taken were after meal leftovers...ahhahaa

Check out the fats ! check out the oils..check out the bones ! hahahahahaa...



Actually it taste just something like herbal chicken..hhmmmm..dun think we will wanna make up for it again..hahahahahaa

I hope i spoilt your appetite with the food pics ! hahahahahahahahaha... :p

Picture

I've been hit by the lazy bug these days...
the really really lazy ones..

when i think... i get headaches...All i do is alot of silly clickings... the same sites... the same routines..waiting for the same lame replies..i can just sit and watch the time passed by... waiting for calls..when i should make calls..i can't breath in my room...i went out for a break..for a fresh....noted down what i need to be doing...i filled up the whole page... my work is pilling up...but i worry on silly things instead of this...i dun really care..i don't even jam...i don't really reply sms ...im not really moody..i dun bother focus...im just really lazy...im still waiting...just another reply maybe ...just a good nite note maybe..just..anything...please..

I don't care.. how's it going to be ...
how's it going to be ...when i found out..there's nothing between you and me ... ..

I wonder...is there anything i've missed ?

I think i really deserved all this...the devil inside is overpowering me...my headache is not getting better...one day this will kill me...definitely maybe..whats the possibility..maybe i should vanish..don't you think so.....

indeed...bye.

Bulat !

This is Chin Jie.
You can call her Bulat.
Because she is round and mean.
She likes to go shopping, and forced people to say she look nice
She likes to eat and eat and eat, then complainted she is fat
She likes to pinched people who is being honest with her saying she is ..fat
She likes to take picture but always complainted the photgrapher makes her face look round
She likes to 38 about anything to everything
She is the member of the kura kura's



beh tahannnnnn !!! hahahahahahahahhahaaa... !!!!!!

Obsessed with Sepia

Pics were taken with my phone camera sepia effect. Damn...can even capture the lightings ! mine is only 2.0 megapixel..i guessed a 3.0 or 3.2 megapixel phone camera can do so much better !

300

I've bought :

ECHO PARK rugged long pants
PETROL long jeans
CHEROKEE khakis
QUIKSILVER 3/4 Jeans
RADIOACTIVE t-shirt
REJECTSHOP polo tee


shots from the fitting room..None of us bought the green tee in the end..haha


advertising for foods..ahahaa


the food were taken with my phone camera..turn out quite clear and good lehh.!

The Phang Brothers

introducting...the Phang brothers !!!
my first close twin friends...never really had any twin friends before though..ahah

Though may look identical in this pic..but they dun in real person. Look wise, character wise, voice pun tak sama, totally 2 different person..hahahahaha...well.. of course is different person mahh..what talk me..ishh..haha

temps

Going out too often
is slowly killing off my work sheduleI
think i need more motivation
but i just can't resist temptation
I know this stage is important
but in the same time i just want to enjoy life
laugh out loud, doing all the crazy things
enjoy and cherish every moment

Its a total breakaway every weekend
makes it hard to pull myself back to reality on Monday
I still have strong passion and big dreams
I know i can put myself into full concentration
strive for the best and be a step ahead
but I keep excuse myself
saying to take things slowly
im still young and the time will come
and i still afford to fall

i dunno if this type of thinking will haunt me back one day...

but i know i won't be happy with just that
life is short and is not just about winning
money can buy you happiness
short but not long term

sharing is caring
i just wan to be happy
who doesn't ?

Forever Living

24 down with 2
32 down left 1
44 down
in 48 hours
printer spread and mock ups
I..gone through it
the worse ..yet

wrist damn sore from the long hours
Spray mounting numb my hands
never get to stop for a proper decent meal
cracking intentionally smile every now and then
I need my sleep

I can blame myself for the very last minute
I couldn't have done it without him bearing my routine
I couldn't have finished it without her joyful presence

Tomorrow ...

Bought Pants

Leng Leng changed her hair parting and helped me shopped for pants..yay !
Boi Boi so nice to tapao me tong yuen on the way back..toh cheh sai !!
Bulat can't talk to me until Friday unless she admit she lose the bet..hahaha !
San San was so scared watching Recycle...wuahahhahahaaa !
Darling didn't really choi me this week...merajuk i think..hahaha..
Beaverly can really shop til she leaks !
Garfield bought a tight pink t shirt !
Jacqueline so nice to offer me her remaining lemonade drinkk..keke
Thean is so serious playing badminton ... chill la bro !
Aldy can't wait to see me wear skirt...ish !

Kimfatt have been staying awake for almost more than 24 hours and should go sleep now !

Busy Day

ding dongg...

"1st message for the day! Haha."

*smiled* :)

Stones

stone is dead
stone is alive
stone is colourful
depends on your mood
and who is with you

walking on stone
running on stone
jumping on stone
it hurts so much
from the outside
but anticipating
cheer from the inside

They don't laugh at you
They don't boast to you
They encourages you
They motivates you
They inspires you

colourful stones
they comes in group
they don't leave you

dull stones
they create obstacle
you design the road

You don't have to be alone
You don't have to know me

Stones of memories
my toe still hurts from the pain
but the cause of the pain
is worth to be remain

But not all stones are the same
not all stones share the pain
they slowly fades
should there be a way
to make a change ?

Zidane is the man !!!!!

hahahahaa..those who watched the World Cup final match .....Zidane !!!! you are da man !!! haahhahahahahahahahahhahaa. That fella go "tanduk" the Italian players in the chest ! CLASSIC MAN !!!! hahahahahahaha

It was a nice experience watching at klang@ Berkeley Corner, with so many both side supporters wearing jerseys, and can't avoid having some annoying malays making stupid shoutings and blowing "trumpets" and "banging tables".... ish ishhh

It was a tiring weekend. Friday nite as usual was badminton. The competition didnt continue this week as many were absent. Good also...hahaha...Saturday. Started off with breakfast at Chi Liung, then off down to KL@Nikko Hotel for Aldy's convocation. Then it was shopping spree for the girls at KLCC the whole day, while the guys...teman. hahahahahah..but it was fun for kena warned twice for curi curi taking pics posing in the shops..checking out all the ah kua's, betting with CJ whether the sales gal is Chinese or Japanese, playing "who's eye blink first" in the car, shout shout for no reasons and the usuals craps and craps...haha..Made the way back to Klang around 8..and decided to catch the midnite show for Superman. Tickets were out...duhh..but we took the risk to come back again at 25 mins before the show starts for the release tickets...and yea yeahh..we got it...9 tickets..in a row ! middle seat somemore ! hahaha.. Superman was...so so...nice camera angles ...but dunno..overall..dun really like ...dissappointed ler. Reached home at 3am, and managed to catch the 2nd half of the match between Germany and Portugal :[p

What did i did on Sunday ? woke up at 2pm. Stoned, makan, slept back again at 3pm. Woke up at 5pm. Chat online, play guitar, out for dinner@Pelita. Then the final match football craze..ehhehe

Well, no more reasons for late night staying up jorr..hahahaha...have a great week ahead everyone !!

Supernova

Fish from the Baby Seafood dinner yesterday. Nice !!

Was watching Rockstar new series. This time searching a new frontman for a rock outfit Supernova.

One of the contestant was singing this song, Roxanne

David : " that shows...how limited your vocal range is.."

Gila kutuk ! ahahahaha...

Host is OUt !

OOHHHHH...NOOOOOOoooooOOOOOoooOOOOOOO !!!!!!!

2 goals in the last 2 minutes extra time !!!! WTFFFF !!!hahahahhaha

Germany is OUT !

dunno should be happy or sad..ahhahahahahaa

2 Cold Misty days ago

pictures courtesy thanks to Drew.

Month Planned Genting Trip

The chills :
- hitching the ride up to Genting with CW's Peugeot 407. Windows all fully tinted, can't see through...ubber cool ! hahahaha...
- Got free massage parlours...kononnya..but it was nice..ahahha
- Ice creams in the colds..hahahahaha
- walking through the thick cold mist 4am sipping coffee bean ice blended :)
- Me and KW managed to climb all the way up to the top on our 2nd attempt for rock climbing..cool man ! hahahaha
- WS and Aldy managed to join us last minute..heheheh
- Chilling with drew in the cold till dusk while the others are nicely sleeping..hahahaha



The Stupids :
- 24/7 sessions of stupidity craps and laughing over even stupid sound effects. Consequences : WS got stomach ache..hahahaaa
- KK told me later that the stranger couple behind was saying us " so so dei wan all" (crazy people all)
- up and down between Genting Hotel and First World with and without bags throughout the day at least more than 4 times...WTF weiiiii !!!!!! hahahahahaha...

The Potong Stims :
- Thean couldn't make it. Too bad man.
- The lost of England on Penalties. But the football fever atmosphere was superb !!!!
- The lost of Brazil. The lesson is : the ball is round ! hahahaa
- I have to share a sofa pillow with Drew...$!#$%!@#%# hahahahahaa
- The McD stranger in front queuing, "shouldn't you guys ask the person in front if he/she will allow you to do so first ? (to order food through friend) " beh tahan....
- have to bear with Bulat keep saying how loveable JJ (they went for his concert) was...aiskkkks...ahahha..jk jk jk



I had a damn nice and fun weekend with the kura-kuraians !!

more pictures coming up soon i guessed.hehhehe

24th June

Signed

Oohh, he signed already
thought it would be kinda tricky
maybe im just thinking silly
but after what happened lately
you cant blame me for extra thinking

two more signings we are done
good to know you are almost gone
whatever happens there's no return
i hope you won't rot in your own world

Maybe i still care maybe i don't
hope time will makes you know
how much we've done to cover you
how much we've overlooked just to keep you
how your ego had actually killed you
how dissappointed we are to believe in you
how dissappointed we are to heard those from you

Tomolo will never die ?
maybe..
I hear first..
You never know..
god bless you..
good luck to you..

Antabax

Friday Nite :
2nd week of Badminton Competition. Be the referee for a match, and won the mix double match !! wuahahhaa..at first lost the first game, but won the 2 games later.. and of course there are the singles and doubles match winners and losers :) nice game guys !!

Saturday :
Had quick lunch at Secret Recipe, catch CARS at 1:20pm. CARS is abit like ROBOT, new experience and new concept. And although quite predictable, i like the ending very much. Finished the movie, went for Thai food fest. Nasi Mangga, TomYam, Otak-Otak and fried fried stuffs..great food ! shopped for stuffs for the BBQ later that night.

Went home, had a very short nap. Woke up late, but still in time to do fruit salad. Honestly, my first time..hahahahaha...took almost an hour to nicely cut a whole honey dew, 5 pears, 5 apples, 5 red jambus and soak grapes, but it turn out not too bad i guess..ahhahaha..

The funniest part is we were going to have a BBQ party without chicken !!!!coz everywhere is marinated chicken wings is out of stocks !! hahaha..but luckily drew got stock left from the previous night, so we still have chicken wings at least. Well, it was a nice session except it rain abit. Doesn't matter though.

The rest left after midnite except me and WS. While me and Drew have some not so legal stuffs. Laughed and stoned the night away....hahahaha..but still managed to go for nasi lemak and catch the match between Argentina and Mexico :p

Sunday :
Bulat, my mouth muscle so numb from the 4 hours sessions of craps lehh..hahahaha..okla..not too crap, not too serious stuffs either. Catch the match between England and Ecuador with friends later that night..so whats next ? DO WORK !!!! @$!#%$@!#%^@#$^%@$

hahahahahahahaha... :P

Tree

Bad things never last long,
because soon it will be long gone

Good things never last long,
else you wouldn't feel the chemistry
else you wouldn't feel the magic

Not pushing, not facing, not hiding
not dissappointed, not sad, not too happy

Dose of shootings, when i'm busy
Dose of shoutings, when i'm happy
Dose of smileys, when i'm needy

Life can be sucky and crappy
but i wouldn't want to change a lil thing like this

Monday Midnight Morning Blues

4hrs...1 hrs ; ...2 hours....15 mins ; and the war still not ended

sometimes to choose or not to choose is not really important
take everything as a lesson learnt .
Get numb to the lesson, might be good, might not be good.

Somehow,
voices that keeps me going
voices that makes me feel better
voices that unintentionally cracks me up
voices that makes me happy
voices of caring

somehow,
it wasn't that bad after all :)

I hate Monday !

Friday nite :
- very pissed off with KHF jor...
- had the best pork chop rice ever !
- won the group badminton competition, singles, against Thean..yea yeahh ! but its only the first round btw.
- had "fu" cha. No big deal la. And the usual "kampung" sessions after badminton.

Saturday :
- Went up for a job but was pushed to Monday. Should have went for Tokyo Drift with the gang. Damn
- 2 hours band practise at noon.
- chill the rest of the noon with Sutesh. Spent more than an hour carrying equipments, walking ups and downs.
- First performance with my band at Fete de la Musique @Bangsar Telawi Street. I don't think we played well, but it was our first anyway. And it was cool and fun ! hahahaha...
- thousands thanks to Picha for staying up and helping us take pictures ! chun man ! hahah
- Yumchar with Vee and Keong after the show. Practically dozing off..
- one of the most fun but damn tiring day

Sunday :
- Woke up an hour late for brunch. Well, bulat is late too..haha
- From just 3, end up 7 of us went up Flea Market @Mont Kiara together..hahaa..expected.
- met NTV7 crew , had some stupid fun, all of us won prizes..hahaha..wat the..
- took more than an hour to finish one round checking out all the stalls.
- bought a necklace pendant for 10 bucks..hahahahaa...nice nice
- kena forced to treat all of them mcD's sundae con..ishh..haha
- took quite some pictures with our hps. weird though..:p
- came back and took a short nap.
- last minute, decided to catch X-Men before it ended showing. Not too bad what the movie..
- got addicted to driving VIOS.
- just in time to watch the match between Brazil and Australia
- end result is 2 - 0. And i lost a movie ticket to WS...ish ishhhh...

Tomolo is Monday...i HATE ! ....!!!!!!

Fete de la Musique @Bangsar Telawi Street

Another gig coming up soon end of the month. Hehe..

17

Hanging out the whole day with 17 years old drummer boy does reminds you of your schooling days, what were you doing at his age, how were you thinking back then. The exams, the curfews, the parents, the tuitions, the SPMs, the weekly allowance, the excuses, the class teachers, the denda's and many more...i miss those carefree days..hahaha..not really carefree also..with all the exams ..hahahaha

Different excuses you get from a school boy
working people : got work laa..cannot..working overtime tonight ler..
schooling : cannot la, i got tuition. got homework to do tonight

working people : this month broke la..still waiting for end of the month gaji
schooling people: my mom didnt give me allowance today la, i only got few bucks with me.

working people : i damn hate my boss, forever giving me load of shits jobs
schooling people : my geography teacher gives me really damn alot of homework man !

working people : i only got 50 bucks left till end of this month
schooling people : i got 50 bucks to spend today, my dad gave this morning.

working people : i miss those schooling days man !
schooling people : i cant wait for holidays man !

Makes me feel old hanging out with him though. hahahaa... And sometimes we simply easily forgive him, knowing and understand as he is only 17yo, still fresh, still alot of rooms of improvement, still flexible, and most of all, always willing to take and learn.

I will give him another shot. But i dunno about the other party though. Hhmm...

The price of 3.10

..................

Thanks for the help, for the favour, for the calls, for the drop bys, for the tau fu fahs.. :)
yea..im still alive.



probably something that you will never get to keep...hahahahhaa..

Just Jam

I was late..thanks to the drummer..
I push open the bulky sound proof door
spacious, dim lights, awesome mood
We have 2 extra audience today
shit...what the..
Sutesh's bro and dad
who were to fetch him back after this

plug in adapters, plug in cable
tuning amplifiers, checking mics
getting myself ready
all the while trying not to look at the 2
pretend they weren't there

The atmosphere
so fucking silent and dim and chilly
a certain doubt on my head
will this be a better sessions

hat 1 hat 2 hat 3 hat4
Jam in the guitars and the drums !
Awesome feelings !
adrenaline rushing

still on the intro of guitars
thinking..
should i scream..or shouldnt i
will i freak both of them out
intro done verse in 2 secs
i close my eyes
catch the beat moment
catch my breath
legs on pedal for the clean
"watching down...imagine..."

I sang and i screamed
it was the best time of the night
upon seeing two of them nodding head to the beat
knowing we weren't running out tempo and tune

Bassist bitched drummer learned
guitarist got overwhelmed that his songs are finally so much better
counting down the days to come
he is ready for it anytime since 2 years ago

Scribbling

I forgot to take the lyric scrap. aiii...there goes 2 hours effort scribbling parts and parts....

insecure

What is this insecure feeling that everyone have ?

That what that you have done or tried to do will never be good enough, will never be impressive enough , or at worse, will never to be bothered enough to convince, to be recognise, or at least, to be remember.

That the past has taught you that, what a fucking great time of your life that you are having now might wouldn't last long. And you know you do try to cherish things, but you will still feel that you hadn't cherish it enough yet until it is over.

That you know a little too much of everything, you do not know where should you be standing. You become selfish.

That you will go around and play, making yourself believe in short terms, periods, but you know one day you will be going back to your roots, and to realise where is actually your real roots ?

that to witness what had happened or is happening to the people around you, you realised eventhough you pray hard enough, but who knows, it might still happen to you one day

that a harmless sentence from a friend can brings you down, pissed you off. They will never know what you've been through and how you tried to change things. In the same time, how a harmless word from you can bring someone down, stir things up.

that you are always asking for more, asking too much

insecure.

After a while, you feel numb
After a while, you can't be bothered yourself too much
After a while, you realised sometimes you are not being yourself enough

DRYE bullshits !

more D.R.Y.E bullshitsssss..ahhahaha

Picha :
Don't Roll Your Eggs
Don't Rape Your Eggs
Don't Ripe Your Eggs

Phoebe :
Don't Ram Your Eggs
Don't Rig Your Eggs
Don't Risk Your Ears
Don't Rape Your Ears

Don't Rasa Your Eggs !

Outside the Curve@ part II

This is like the 2nd time, the same gang, about the same time, also after ktv, snapping off pictures outside the Curve at 4:30am in the morning ! hahahahaa...

It was Fan Jean's birthday. Besides the usual fun, one highlight of the night is that me and Jak Jak singing off 4-5 indon songs in a row ! that was cool man ! hahahahaha...indon pun saya boleh !!! hahahahahaa...

Finally i did made the effort to come after the badminton with the gang. Else i would have miss out this fun :p


Take a normal group picture first. Whatever happens later, let it be whatever..haha.


this was Fan Jean's idea and i quite like it. hehe..


Freestyle yeaaa...


We spotted a trolley not far away...ABUSE !

I reached home at 6 the next morning.

Standing Wave

Jammed at this private studio, Standing Wave in Subang. Fucking much better than Jamstudio ! #%$@!#! will never wan to go Jamstudio anymore..duhhh

"What do you think ?
Where do you think i need to improve ?"

Was quite stunned when being asked this question. and was happy in the same time ! But was thinking who am i to judge it anyway.. luckily Taik was humble enough to answer it for me.. and i like that..haha..

No doubt he is GOOD. But just maybe came unprepared. And for the first time, someone said to me "hey, you got good vocals" ...ha...stoned ! maybe he was refering to the screamings..hahaha.

Looking forward to the next session in a week's time. I think something will eventually work out.


Alot asked...what is dryE ?
The name, dryE. I think it was 2 years back di la. Felt like my mind, ideas, enthusiasm, passion, everything dried out. So i just added an E behind..watever..i just like the name.hahaha..

Then later on, Jae Shen was kind enough to brainstorm some funny names from it..among one of it is my favourite though...

dryE - Don't Risk Your Eggs

ahahahahhaa...damn cool man ! maybe this is a much cooler explaination than the first one..but then it sounds like a punk band name abit. Well, if the other members felt akward, then maybe,

dryE - Don't Risk Your Ego

does it makes any senses ? i dunno. My english sucks...

Well..who knows, we might settle down with a different name though..see how things goes !

Road smile

i was about to step on my fuel pedal and drive. There was this one handicapped old man cycling across the road in front of me. He knows that i want to go straight and that he is blocking the road. He was trying to pass the road quickly. He was trying hard when he look over. I just look at him and smile....and he smiled back. And happily cycling off the road.

This is just a small scenario. I dunno what im trying to say here also..

I guess sometimes a smile can makes wonder. Guessed my simple makes him felt relieved. :)

No not enough

No time to change my expired driving license ...
No time to change my guitar strings ...
No time to fix my racquet strings ...
No time to buy my mic recorder ...
No time to write new riffs ...
Not enough time to sleep ...
Not enough to spend ...
No not enough ...

good things

Good things comes to those who waited...
good things come and goes...
good thing that stay with you long enough maybe its not the best
running out of good things then comes new good things
good things brings you new opportunity
the new good things might give you the same or more dissappointment
then perhaps the dissappointed good things may lead you to more good things
thus you will have new hope

a hope that makes my adrenaline rush and excited when i should be doing work

will it be another dissappointment again ?
i really hope not. but i will know soon
if things goes right i will push and struggle my best to breakthrough
if good things goes right the end of july will be the first breakthrough

Good things comes to those who waited..
i hope my turn have come...

3 2

"See... i told you my decision that time is not wrong. What i predicted happened. But i don't blame you at all. Im dissappointed as well... but we move on and learnt"

Good and bad things does happens in the same time. But sometimes, bad thing can be good thing also. Im much happier now with the outcome.

So dark the conman. Just totally dissappointed.

i-bands

got this on my mailbox... hhmmm....

hi.wanna ur songs 2b aired on d rtms' radios.ur songs have 2b screened out by d rtm.only passed songs will be aired.im trying to make all passed songs to b aired on all rtms' radios.ur also have to pay less than rm21 4 d fee test n admin.it is not a competition just my effort given to enhanced ug scene in malaysia.feel free to call me sophian at 0163355503

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Trails

24 hours and still going on

You know what, i was late for badminton last Friday
but you know what, that one hour men's play sweat enough to make my day

The same day, we watched Da Vinci Code on a Saturday morning
The same day, i bought a new black stud while shopping
The same day, we watched Poseidon on the same night
The same day, i got a kao kao pinch from roundy at QQ
The same day, i went barFlam with San San the same night
The same day, San San was gone and i have to drive her home

The next day, lucky the cycling was postponed
The next day, i woke up at 3pm by my handphone
The next day, i start working on Forever Living

Today, it wasn't a too bad day
Today, i rush the deadline until noon day
Today, i was replyin sms the whole day
Today, i had a nice free dinner from Teabreak

Tonight, i reached home after raining
Tonight, i had Peel Fresh at roundy
Tonight, i havent slept since yesterday night
Tonight, im gonna sleep back my 48 hours night !

Song For Sale

Jinn from Vespertine "buying" my Song For Sale..ahhahahahaha...the last year single track recording tak jadi, but this time gonna do this with better recordings using his kit tools.

Song For Sale as heard was in acoustic, wonder how it will sounds like in full band. hhmmm...

YUm Yum Delicious !!!

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expect unexpect

this should be a very good start
for us who waited this long
never would i thought
that you will choose to backout
coz you were never once out
i never think twice or doubt

i don't blame you coz i understand
whats mandatory and whats's secondary
i wish you good luck all the best

i know you will come back one day
maybe we will corporate one day
maybe in different ways

I hope your passion will still stay
coz i will continue all along the way
eventhough i have to start all over again

Cycling@Bukit Cahaya

Friday nite badminton was a nice one, as i played almost the whole 2 hours..hahahaha. Then the usual yumchar at Kampung after the game, i ordered watermelon+milk, after gulping down the whole cup, with soon gonna be Dr. Phang saying another fruit juice won't cause anything, i ordered another carrot+milk. End up, lao sai once i reached home ! backside betul !

Saturday, finally the whole week planning jadi. 10 of us managed to woke up as early as 8am, gathered and drive up to Bukit Cahaya for cyclinggg. It was a really nice morning weather as the sun wasn't too hot. I guessed this is the first time i cycle for the past..2 years oledi i think..hahaha.. but it was really fun cycling up and down hill, sweated like a pig, and was more exhausted than i expected. The girls have to like on and off walk and push their bics..kesian..hahahahaha...Except Judee and Stef, who do weekly cyclings. Once we reached the end, it was this scenery of a lake overlooking a big bushy tall trees, really look like one of the scenery in Hero....nice and calm. We took alot of pictures on the way before we cycled back :)

It was a really fun journey. Will like to do it again man.

The afternoon dvd marathon plan was cancel as ..ahhaha..everyone was too tired after the cycle. Practically felt asleep when not even started watching yet, including myself.

And the plan for the clubbing night finally happened after few weeks of postponing. It was a really fun and happening Saturday night at Poppy@Passion, and im sure everyone enjoyed themselves. Me, hhmm...expected la...got really high and drunk..hahahahaha...

Supposedly band practise on Sunday was cancel and postponed to few days later. Well, good also. good day for me to rest. Got up, a little wee bit of hangover, went out for lunch with those who have waken up, then yumchar with my fatty and friends, then supposedly 2nd round yumchar with Alvin as he is leaving back to Shanghai tomolo, but i was really too tired to get my ass up, ffk in the end..hehe.. night was spent watching tv with my mom while chatting on msn off and on. No, i didn't buy anything nor wish my mother, just spent some time with her.

This evening, i compose a new song, after quite some times. But i havent bought a new mic recorder yet...damnnnnn.

shit happens

2 Indons stole a Harley Davidson kinda lookalike motorbic. In a small and happening area, speeding off with police chasing from behind, they skidded and banged into a girl, who was with her mother, after having their lunch. The girl lay unconscious, blood covered face. Her mother rushed her to the nearest hospital.

The police managed to arrested one of the Indon. The other guy escape.

The victim took leave from work and was having a nice time with her mom. I guessed now she will have a long leave from work.

The victim is my friend.

I hope the accident after effect won't impacted her too much.

first week of May !!!!!

Last weekend....

Friday was a light badminton night
i missed fatty's so called birthday treat
but i met kok wai's twin brother kok kit
i think they are my first twin friend

Saturday night was Mission Impossible night
the cinema system jam and we got all in a row seats
still not too late we crash over Star Pisces after that
chit chat chips and fries and a bucket of beer
not to forget we have a new friend named Jac i,
i think so

The night end but it was still raining
i feel happy but i need to work
burn the night oil rushing rushing
4:50 came dusk and off with heman
bah kut teh is the best before you rest
sunrises and i called it the end

on the way back then i remembered
thought just to pass by well he was there
burn the joss stick and pay my respect
thought was a short while turn out an hour
sacrifice my sleep for a very close friend
doesn't matter althought im tired

Smiling in my day dream land
and i missed dim sum with the gang
woke up it was time to called very late
it was sunday but i carry on with my task
rushing hoping im satisfied

Lazy call thus out for a short break
Esso mamak with the twins and beaver
that's the 2nd time i rejected mr. lock

thats my weekend and im tired
though im tired but im happy

A building where no one walks

try not to drop by first floor
if you have to, just look for who you intend to look for, not anyone else
When in 2nd floor
try to look like busy eventhough u are not
when you were done with your yesterday work
just leave and don't look back ! don't look back !
unless you not gonna sleep and be slave !

What do you do on Labour Day ?? Labouringg..hahaha

Shabu Shabu
steamboat dinner @SS2
with drew ann and lulu
halfway need to rush to the loo
after shitting feeling loose
continue eating and it feels so good
happy belated birthday lulu

hartamas square
ben made it there
drew met his friend
left the babi's there
sampat here and there
stories everywhere

ups

To you :
Try to cut down the intake will ya ?
you know you don't really need it actually
at least eat abit food for breakfast :)


Im gonna start and maintain back my daily push ups routine. Its really hard nowadays with all the stress and work but i will try to do it.

hhuuusshhhhh

You feel black out
you feel high
you feel happy
you feel stoned
you feel stupid
you feel like floating
you feel your echo
you feel heavy
you feel thirsty

ohh..fuckkkkk..fly me to ...

2

2 new friends
few familiar faces

bring in friend
expand the gang

more new faces
more new plans

best of all
all from klang

Drew yea man !
Klang people rocks !!

Jujur

Im listening to Indon songs ! yea yea..im ..hahahahahaa..i dig it man..ahhahaha

thanks to Jax and Frisha..i finally have that few songs that i heard and like but dunno who sang them..hahahaa

Among the few are :
Radja - Jujur
Radja - Tulus
Peterpan - mungkin nanti
Peterpan - menunggumu
Dewa - pupus
Dewa - kangen
Padi - Sobat
Padi - menanti sebuah jawapan

Knowing me..my favourite is Jujur by Radja..nice song..nice arrangement with violins and piano and strings..hehehe

Oh yea..that day i saw Jacklyn Victor, the first Malaysian Idol at the Curve. Wooo...thought she look taller from the tv, but not in real life. Also with quite thickish whitening make up, well, the friends that were with me said that, not me..hahahaha..

iends

A Just Friend says..hi,..hello,..bye,...and walks away...
A Best friend always stop by your side & asks how r u doing ??

A Just Friend has never seen you cry.
A Best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A Just Friend thinks the friendship is over, when you have an argument.
A Best friend knows that it's not a friendship, until you've had a fight.


what about Best Friend that you used to cry on shoulder is now Just Friend ?
What about an argument with a best friend which ends up not even friend ?
What about Best Friend that always gives you problems ?
What about Just Friend that understands you more than Best Friend ?
what about friend that you don't call up or meet often but you know they are your Best Friend ?
what about your Best Friend that maybe only take you as Just Friend ?

Talk about this..
these days is like the seasons of drama for friends..

i heard of 2 good friend end up in a fight
i heard of wars between gang of close friends
i think i lost a friend the other day over argument
i heard of cold war between partners over some misunderstandings
i heard of friends being cheated by trusted friend

I think shouldn't say as best friend kua..good friends, close friends better la. And i thought best only apply to one ? hahaha... people change from time to time, so does your friends too. Sometimes friends that were only Just Friend to you for the past 10 years, suddenly becomes your Best Friend these days..or sometimes he is ur best friend based on the good memories you guys have on the past

Locked from the Inside

Damn careless today.
Went for futsal, i was late. I reached and im changing. I always put my shirt and stuffs at the behind seats. So i stopped engine, open the backseat door, throw my car key on the back seats, pick up my shoes and shirt, and change. After changing and packing, i terpress my car key alarm lock button but i didn't realised it. The alarm ranggg...stupid me thought the car key is still insert at the engine startup slot, so i closed the door behind and booh...MY CAR IS LOCKED FROM THE INSIDE....duhhhh....the alarm keep ringing but i cant do anything. Luckily i didn't set any timer for the alarm, so it didn't rang again after the first time. Was abit frus but it didn't spoil my mood for futsal though..hahahaa..

So how did i open my car lock in the end ? of course went back to get the spare key laaaa...and who is helping you with that ? have to paksa my fatty laaa...kesian him have to fetch me back and forth..hahahaa...thanks thanks. Luckily its in Klang !

DVD

Last Saturday was nice. Started off with the bah kut teh treat from bulat, celebrating of her getting work promotion ! congrats congrats ! i went back for a not so short nap, did some work, then joined the gang for dvd. They were finishing one of the dvd when i arrived, so i only got to watch Just Like Heaven. Some left and we continue with Manhunt on Channel V...hahahahaa..back for dinner, a short jammin session, a short work out session, a short msn chatting session, then back to Aldy's place again for 2nd round movie marathon. Watched half of Independence Day, 20 mins of football match between Chelsea and Liverpool, Heirloom, Scary Movie 4. Back home it was almost 5am. And luckily it was Sunday the next day. And the gang went for lunch and shopping the next day, wonder how they managed to wake up sooo early :p

It feels like Melbourne again. Everyone is so nearby, well of course, the difference is we need to to take a short drive around lah.


"when all else fails, go sweat yourself"
"i suggest sleep..hahahaha."
"hhmm..ok. When you are pissed and stress, go sweat urself out"
"haha...i still suggest sleeping is the best solution !"

#@$@!$!$!## .hahahahhahaa :)

sigh sign

Flashbacks of memories how we started this last year
everything went well, everything is good
not long ago we know there's the problem
i thought we solve it but still it occurs
the game hasn't really started
but you said you are tired
you are really tired..

What's wrong with you ?
Where's your driving passion ?
where is the maturity that i always see in you ?
We are still very far from destination yet
What's going on with you ?

You may have your personal issues
but running away won't help
its not like the end of the world
where's your responsibility ?
do you know what are you doing ?

Its your own decision
or rather i did make my decision
its what you said today that
i find no other encouraging reasons
that we should tolerate
that we should help
that we should understand
that we should..hold on

someone out there still believes in you
someone out there still finding ways for you
someone out there still waiting for your news
but you..
your excuse is loose
you gave up too soon
you lost yourself

I might be harsh but im not heartless
you can say im selfish and stubborn
but there is just no more room for drama
i dunno when you gonna sway away again
no point coming back and sigh again
there is once and there will always be again
by the time isnt that the same cycle again ?

i look forward and move on
assumming you were not on the same boat anymore
i wear the mask of unthreaten and steady
deep inside im pretending
like its no big deal

i should be sleeping actually
i can't sleep and decided to write this
maybe it is starting to sink in
above dissappointment and stress
im... sad

stupid pimple

ooooo...this ugly shits of bump
keep getting it around my nose these days...

damn pain ehhhh....duhhhh...

same boat

sometimes im harsh on you..
sometimes i push you too hard
sometimes im not qualify to judge you to start with

sometimes im being shit..
sometimes you have to bear with me

sometimes you surprised me
sometimes you dissappointed me
and most of the time you amazed me

how you handle things
how you improve drastically

because i never deny your ability
coz you have always prove to me
to you i put trust
coz we are on the same boat
share the same passion
hope it will always be

Most of all, thanks for bearing with me always


I think i haven't did enough yet as a friend..

happy birthday, fatty.

I was at a place where you have to shout to others for them to hear you

a stage full of dressed up good looking people
a glass of barcardi Lemon Coke after sooo long
a nicotine menthol stick on my finger
an eehhyooo ehhyooo music track mixer

a glance of sexy
a smile of cheeky
a sip to heaven
a move of actions

wow...its been a while.. !!

absolutely zero

lights out
playing absolutely zero
by jason mraz

got in the mood
mood to be alone
mood to think
mood to feel emo
for this short 3 mins

feeling
fucking lazy
but im not lost
but fucking unmotivated

work piled up
late night staying up
acne breaking out
hungry empty stomach

I need my dose
dose of distortions
dose of writings
dose of screamings
dose of sweats
dose of craps
and i like that

Don't ask me don't nag me
Don't make assumptions please
what is here please stay here
else i won't bother

here i can be me
out there i won't be like this
thats the purpose of my blog writing
this is my stress relieve
i wonder if everyone is like this

You should know who i mean
You should know what i mean

3 lights away

The long awaited puff..
it feels nice and cool

first time in slazh
couldn't care less

company in crime
surrounded by dark trees

a sense of float
a moment of high

3 ticts away

shouldn't be waited

truth or dare
beers and 100

another night of crazy
a night with kinky shits

I should be working
I ended up working

though
i weren't grumbling
not really complaining
i'm procastinating

Break

I forced myself to finish the chee cheong fun...
I was waiting...

I was kinda busy
when it came in

I couldn't finished even a double cheeseburger for dinner...
but i thank you for being you

Friday
my mind keep drifting away
sorting myself out
distract myself away

the scars were always there
reminds me that the past is real...

Everything will be ok back again
the mended and broken parts will be fix soon

as long as i don't touch the knobe
as long as i hide away the keys

Im happy
and i wish you happy

:)

The friend..12.04

The friend who play football dribbling and passing on the street road with me, that was crazy
The friend who i fetch with my ol'skool bike to everywhere, countable accidents
The friend who i broke his glass but tiukao me like hell when i offered to pay him back
The friend who always gives me shit, and helps me in deep shit
The friend who my parents only knew of my friend back then
The friend who sometimes force me to go vegetarian with him in canteen
The friend who indirectly made me lost my first girlfriend
The friend who i were asked by his family to inform him the first place of his mother's departure
The friend who tried to change my mind when i decided to leave science stream
The friend who i indirectly screwed up his sister's wedding pictures
The friend who was never lucky so far in relationship
The friend who brighten up my every birthdays
The friend who flew away for the 4th year
The friend who always support and encourage me in everything

The friend of my best childhood memories...

"hey, still remember wat day is 2day?my bro's birthday! as a friend of him, hav you wish him yet ?if not, do it now lo ! help me ask the others to wish him also. k ?"


And...
i
fucking
forgot
your
birthday

If not of your brother reminding me with sms on your birthday night, i would have ..seriously...forgot.

What kind of friend am i.

I feel like a pimp

Bullshits !

Tonight i have the most crappiest sessions with the gals, the couple and the friend. Guessed i must be high from the nasi lemak or 100 plus. The debatings, the shoutings, the pinchings, the laughters, the echoes, well..nothing important...all bullshit...hahahahahhaa..

Or must be because i won the single match tonight..wuahahahaha... !
And thanks YL for the round treat..hahahaha..seems like quite some free meals these weeks, Lotus on fatty, BahKutTeh on KW, and today..yea yea...but im still broke though...

They must be surprised when they hear me sing chinese songs tomolo ! kekekee...yea..what else but ktv..hahahaa..

Here comes the weekend, benjoy !

Drye's Jammin Session.2

The jammin session that day...i was sick...but nothing could stop me..hahahahaaa...

Everything
The first jam, too slow, guitar and bass off tune, can't hear wei loon's kick, arrangement abit out, my vocal sucks, stopped halfway. Retune, reconstruct, after the 2nd rejam, everything starts to come in piece ! by the time we rehearse it for the 4th time, i no longer think about whether the bass will go off key, whether the drum will sounds weird, nice ! maybe just a bar or 2 of drums that wei loon cant remember how i really compose it in the demo..nvm..next time !

Time
The first jam, fuck...it was awesome ! damn...it wasn't a problem for wei loon since we jammed this before the last time. But for Taik, the bassist, everything he played was ...cool..damn !

Possibility
Nice ! besides the first time we stopped halfway because the bridge was confusing, the rejam again was ..complete ! hahahahahaa... except maybe just figure out that wei loon got lost in some parts dunno when to go into chorus..i guessed so..hahahahaha..you da man !

Fallin Apart
I think this is my personal favourite song. 3 attempts and we stopped, coz Taik admit he couldn't get what was i playing from the demo or from the tabs i gave, until now seeing how i play it. While Wei Loon being forgetful again..hahahaa..well..i dun blame, it was a kinda progressive rock song to start with.

My Way
Didn't thought we will jam this song, coz it wasn't in our jammin list actually. But it just hit off like that, everything...just like that..hahahaha..damn nice feeling though !

I still got quite some complaints though. Like the sound system, the drumkick sound, the mic stand, the mic volume, the studio guitar amps, and the 2 other bandmates that couldn't make it. But practise makes perfect, i couldn't ask more for the first jammin sessions with Taik, the bassist. And i believe Taik can play alot better adding in his own style the next sessions, coz he is just playing according to my tabs for this time.

KF : hey..still interested to jam with that bassist fella ?
WL: Of course. He is the best one we jammed before so far.

I agreed..hahahahah

Looking forward for more jammin sessions. And please, i hope i don't fall sick on that very day again...duhhh !

Ps. We saw you that day. Either you are blind, or you didn't saw us, or you just overlooked us..coz we were just 2 tables away and you passed by us twice...hahahaha...well, i didn't greet you also to start with, doesn't matter la...dunno..dun care.

Blackie

She cried tonight, midnight
It was weird..it seldom happened.
I went down to her, to check on her.
She was alright, but she is crying,
she look so sad, why...
I know why..
she want to get out from the kernel..
but mom always put her in the kernel in the night...
don't ask me why

Her eyes are wet
transparently glowing...
heavy breathingly
looking at me...
i keep smiling and saying
"sleep la...sleep la"

then i remember the old sayings..
if you rub the tears of a dog onto your own eyes...
you can see the "other" world...

She usually don't cry,
tonight she does,
and there's the tears..
but no..i didn't took the risk...
crazy..hahahaha...
my own imagination could oledi kill me

tonight i felt pity
i left her out from the kernel
im a good boy
but for sure mom gonna nag me tomolo

Hopefully the night is still the same
as long as she don't bising

Best presentation

Today i had the best "presentation" ever...i guessed so..

Maybe i was sick and weak, maybe i just dunwan to start the fire knowing me, i will just shoot everything out. Maybe it was vc, who played the cards so smartly and carefully, which makes me presented it in the end in the most general ways. Seriously, i was surprised myself.

Things that supposed to said, is said.
Things that supposed to be done is done
Things that supposed to be discuss, is discuss

problems are clear
misunderstandings are clear
direction clear
major role clear

I think it does scratched the match fire a bit. But it didn't spread off just like that. Everything under control, i made my point, he made his point, so does he.

Everyday we learn something, today i learnt :

Outsiders always knows clearer whats happening between. When you see them, you are the outsiders ; when they see you, they are the outsiders.

Water Balloons

I know everyone knows that night is gonna be a fun crazy nite for all of us.
Everything well prepared...the belons are readily loaded with water, the airgun is armed, the cake is nicely cream whipped.

The plan abit spoiled when the birthday boy dinner was cut short, and saw us preparing the water belons. But there was no turning back for him...wuahahahhaha

The supposed plan is to bring the water belons over to a nearby padang to play and celebrated. But dunno who started throwing balloons at KW..... and..----- war starts !!!

15 minutes of war... KW avoiding and running..and he slipped and fell...yea..wet floor. Knee cap hitted, pain, care, cant stand, end up at the nearest clinic.

Party ends...just like that ! hahahahaha...

What a birthday present to you, KW :)

Well, anyway, we make him cut the cake the next day and belanja us yumchar. Yea, his knee is ok the next day.

thanks

Wooo..thanks all for the supports and motivations. Alot of unexpected smses and msgs ...really really unexpected..appreciate that

Didn't know many of my friends actually take the time to download and listen to all the songs. The power of MSN..hahahaha...Felt kinda weird knowing people heard my sucky vocals..hahahaha...and of course..screamings..

But guess this all started off with the acoustic "song for sale" song. Among all the compliments and critics, my best satisfaction was knowing that it actually inspired some of my friends to do things they wanted.

I wrote that song for someone ?
well..maybe..subconsciously..to someone that i once really care for..
The lyrics ? hahaa..like i said..i just sang out just like that..no proper lyrics..just the chorus

Doesn't matter where im going
for as long as you can hear me
its the best thing i 've ever had
for as long as you can make me real

Write more acoustic songs like that? yea..i will considered that if i found a great vocalist..hehe
Write chinese songs ? i dunno..never tried..hahahahaha. I scare it will turn out and sounds like English ..hahahah..

But like the title itself..i wrote that song..is actually to really sell that song...to whoever that interested to buy it..ahhahaha...

I feel motivated. Thanks alot.

http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/1444/music.php

k...gonna rest a while. Whipped cream+balloon+flour+water+airgun party tonight !!!! hope the girls wear white..ahhahahahahahahaa...

FEEL

Was yumcharing together with Ah Loong tonight. He shared this funny story.

He have this girl staff in his bridal shop ( family business ). And this girl got a boyfriend. For the first few weeks (or months i forgot), the boyfriend will drive his car and going a few circles around the bridal shop area after sending the girlfriend to work..

When asked why do he do that ?

"i drive rounding around your shop, so that you will FEEL that im guarding and protecting you"

WTF....... ?????

8

8 met
on a heart shape day
2 were my old's
the rest are new

from planned sushi
to a waited more than an hour
but food never arrived cafe
to a dim sum restaurant

thought was a one night stop
ended up almost every weekend
every other day
for sure every wednesday

different backgrounds
funny stories
fresh characters
balance gender
caring and laughter

funnyhow it all connected
despite the connected area
and the circle is growing out 8
where were they before this ?
where were i before this ?
how were we before this ?

Connect - disconnect - reconnect

make believe.

Hgih

After few days practises, finally managed to jump and play and sing with my GRX40, hanging as low as till below my waist..looks so much cooler ! wuahahahaha.. now i need a mic stand ..!

Realtek sound card not nice lehh..i want back my VIA... !!!! @#$!%!$!#@!

Jammin Jammin Jammin ... can't wait... !

9 more picture messages in 4 days time..shit shit shit !!

Banyak ammendments...die die die !

life getting back to ol' batman...ooo..not very good le !

Parents cold war ends... finally mannnn !

air cond filter changeddd ... i get cold now !!

Washed my car after the rain ...so please don't rain !

3000km passed service point ..how how...shit..i gonna kena from my dad later...

hey hey..you must be sleeping, waiting for your reply ...hope you get the job yea !!

Ooh oohh..another Flash again...makan makan...thanks thanks !

Sorry ah the recent face for Jusco Aeon model, sure you must be dissappointed leh..hope to see you soon anyway..hehehe !

Zeon Zeon Zeon...so headache ....Ganozhi Ganozhi ... waiting for your positive reply

SRC cepat call back when cik Jan is not around !! im busy leh..hahahaha..jk !

I threw away burned back work cd ! lucky Jo is still around !!

Pass pass goal tomolo .. yeah
drop shot smash after tomolo.. yeah

Ice Age 2 .. yeah !

Genting..come come...! but don't get fooled on the day !

The N times he borrowed 50 bucks from me unreturned...haha..but its alrite...500, 5000 bucks or more also i will borrow or help , coz i will always love him !

k....time to sleep..1000000% will be waken up by 0122248512 tomolo ! hahahahaa...:)


Good morning everyone !!! thanks for readin my bullshit..im a zombie jorrrr...shit..hungry...dun care la..not the first time....nite. nite.